10/28/09

My Best Friend

I never had no one
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend

10/27/09

come on get higher

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water, If I could tell you what’s next
Make you believe, make you forget

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet,
perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water, if I could tell you what’s next,
make you believe, make you forget


Me and You

Ordinary no, really don't think so
Not a love this true
Common destiny
We were meant to be
Me and you

Like a perfect scene from a movie screen
We're a dream come true
Suited perfectly for eternity
Me and you

Every day, I need you even more
And the night time too
There's no way
I could ever let you go
Even if I wanted to

Every day I live
Try my best to give
All I have to you
Thank the stars above
That we share this love Me and you

Every day, I need you even more
And the night time too
There's no way
I could ever let you go
Even if I wanted to

Ordinary no, I really don't think so
Just a precious few
Ever make it last
Get as lucky as
Me and you

10/25/09

I wanna feel that fire...

She wants her nails painted black/She wants the toy in the crackerjack /She wants to ride the bull at the rodeo/She wants to wear my shirt to bed/She wants to make every stray a pet/She needs to feel that fire/The one that lets her know for sure/She's everything I want and more/Her real desire, is to know I'd walk alone out on the wire/To make her feel that fire/She wants a cabin in the woods/She wants to stand where nobody stood/And someday she wants a couple kids of her own/She wants to make love in the rain/And some days she only wants a break/she wants what she wants, but man I know/She needs to feel that fire/The one that lets her know for sure/She's everything I want and more/Her real desire, is to know I'd walk alone out on the wire/To make her feel that fire /So as long as there's a breath to take/A smile to share, a prayer to pray/A chance to hold her hand to fan the flame/She's gonna feel that fire/The one that lets her know for sure/She's everything I want and more/Her real desire, Is to know I'd walk alone out on the wire/Yeah, to make her feel that fire/She wants her nails painted black/She wants the toy in the crackerjack /She wants to ride the bull at the rodeo

-Dierks Bentley-feel that fire.

10/19/09

Never Gonna Be Alone

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know,

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall.
You're never gonna be alone. I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know,

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna take the world on. I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
Ooooh.

You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes,
Tomorrow never comes?

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna take the world on. I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there all of the way.
I won't be missing one more day.
I'm gonna be there all of the way.
I won't be missing one more day.
nickelback-never gonna be alone

I know you need to hear it. I love you and you're never going to be without me. You're never gonna be alone.

10/17/09

Now that I found you

How can I believe
That my heart would find someone like you
You see me, the real me
No in between, I had nowhere to hide
You took away the walls around me
Made me feel safe to share my truth

I see the heavens open, a heart that once was broken
Is holding nothing back
Now that I found you
You hold me like a prayer, you touch me everywhere
A lifetime just ain't enough to love you true
Now that I found you
Now that I found you

I do believe we're meant to be
Our chemistry will last forever
And through the years
We'll see some tears
We'll conquer fears
And together we will grow
Look through your eyes
They tell me
I no longer have to be alone

I see the heavens open, a heart that once was broken
Is holding nothing back
Now that I found you
You hold me like a prayer, you touch me everywhere
A lifetime just ain't enough to love you true
Now that I found you
Now that I found you

You see me, the real me
You believe you in me

I see the heavens open, a heart that once was broken
Is holding nothing back
Now that I found you
You hold me like a prayer, you touch me everywhere
A lifetime just ain't enough to love you true
Now that I found you
Now that I found you

10/16/09

As Far As It Goes

Lately I’ve found myself fallin’
Deeper in love with you
I’m not the kind of guy
Who gets swept away
So here’s what I’m gonna do
I’m gonna give you this heart of mine
But that’s where I draw the line

I’m only gonna give you everything
Take it a mile beyond the end of the road
I’m gonna love you one day past forever
But that’s as far as it goes

I know it may not sound like much
But baby, make no mistake
I’m gonna treat you with more tenderness
Than any one woman can take
I’m gonna make all your dreams come true
But after that, baby, I’m through

I’m only gonna give you everything
Take it a mile beyond the end of the road
I’m gonna love you one day past forever
But that’s as far as it goes

You’ve got your limits, I’ve got mine
I’m only gonna go the distance
Time after time

I’m only gonna give you everything
Take it a mile beyond the end of the road
I’m gonna love you one day past forever
But that’s as far as it goes

I need you...

I wanna get lost in some corner booth, Cantina, Mexico
I wanna dance to the static of an AM radio
I wanna wrap the moon around us, lay beside you skin on skin
Make love til the sun comes up, til the sun goes down again
Cause I need you

Like a needle needs a vein
Like my uncle Joe in Oklahoma needs a rain
I need you
Like a lighthouse on a coast
Like the father and the son need the Holy Ghost
I need you, Ooh I need you

10/15/09

Just Might

I got miles of troubles spreadin' far and wide,
Bills on the table gettin' higher and higher,
They just keep on comin', there ain't no end in sight.
I'm just holdin' on tight

I got someone who loves me more than words can say,
and I'm thankful for that each and every day.
And if I count all my blessings,
I get a smile on my face.
Still it's hard to find faith.

But if you can look in my eyes,
And tell me we'll be alright.
If you promise to never leave,
You just might make me believe.

It's just day to day tryin' to make ends meet,
What i'd give for an address out on Easy Street.
I need a deep margarita to help me unwind
Leave my troubles behind.

I used to believe in us when times go tough,
But lately I'm afraid that even love is not enough.

But if you can look in my eyes,
And tell me we'll be alright,
If you promise never to leave,
You just might make me...
Oh you just make me,
You just might make me believe

10/13/09

Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

10/10/09

consider me gone

everytime i turn the conversation to something deeper than the weather i can feel you all but shutting down. and when i need an explanation for the silence you just tell me you don't wanna talk about it now.
what you're not saying is coming in loud and clear we're at a crossroads here...
if i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose. if i'm not that arrow to the heart of you. if you don't get drunk on my kiss. if you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done. let's not drag this on. consider me gone.
with you i've always been wide open like a window or an ocean. there is nothing i've ever tried to hide. so when you leave me not knowing where you're going i start thinking that we're looking at goodbye.
how about a strong shot of honesty don't you owe that to me.
consider me a memory, consider me the past, consider me a smile in an old photograph someone who used to make you laugh.
if i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose. if i'm not the arrow to the heart of you. then i guess we're done. lets not drag this on. consider me gone.

10/9/09

keep you

i wrote a couple notes. one in love, one in anger. they're lying there dying in the dresser drawer. lived louder than my voice. struggled through a stranger. he loved me until i loved you even more. it's a bittersweet victory. lovin' someone else who wanted me. now i can't laugh, can't cry. and i can't run, can't hide. you get used to the pain, numb to the sting 'till you can't feel anything. you tried to explain, but i couldn't hear it. as if your words were my tears. flowing freely, warm and quiet. from the edges of my eyes and my ears. then all disappears. now i can't laugh, can't cry. and i can't run, can't hide. -keep you-sugarland


everything is in the lyrics. everything that happened. every up and every down. you didn't understand. you never could. i was wrong you were right, no matter what the fight. you cheated on me, you lied to me, you violated every ounce of trust i had in you. all those notes, were they real, or did you lie? pardon me-stained, lie to me-12 stones, i can't do that anymore-faith hill. and many more were all you. you had me confused and bent to your will. you did what you wanted for a thrill. no matter what you did, you had an answer a reason why i made you do it, i hurt, i cried, i thought i was worthless, i did everything i could, for you. you called me aphrodite, calypso, a diamond in the rough, told me i was perfect, then tore it all down. breathe-taylor swift. i tried to move on you wouldn't have it. i wasn't strong enough to walk away. i loved you, somedays i struggle not too. i don't understand why, after everything you did, i miss you... somedays not at all, somedays i wanna pick up the phone, i won't because i know in the end we'll go back through this cycle, you tear more of me apart each time. i won't do that anymore. i made my choice. i'm happy. why can't you just walk away, why can't you stop hurting me, why do you haunt me? i want him, you criticize his every move, he's never lied, never cheated, never hurt me... why would i ever trust you again... quit. walk away. forget it all. i can't laugh, i can't cry. i'm done. i have been for a long time. don't you dare mess with my future. i'm finally happy. even the toughest days don't compare to the hell you put me through and they never will. ps i love you.

10/7/09

hurt

it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now.
- lady a

i cross my heart and promise to give all i've got to give to make all your dreams come true
- george strait

and i thought i loved you then...
-brad paisley


I keep trying to stay positive and stay happy. I keep trying to do what I have to. I fall short sometimes. I love you. I miss you.