keep you

i wrote a couple notes. one in love, one in anger. they're lying there dying in the dresser drawer. lived louder than my voice. struggled through a stranger. he loved me until i loved you even more. it's a bittersweet victory. lovin' someone else who wanted me. now i can't laugh, can't cry. and i can't run, can't hide. you get used to the pain, numb to the sting 'till you can't feel anything. you tried to explain, but i couldn't hear it. as if your words were my tears. flowing freely, warm and quiet. from the edges of my eyes and my ears. then all disappears. now i can't laugh, can't cry. and i can't run, can't hide. -keep you-sugarland


everything is in the lyrics. everything that happened. every up and every down. you didn't understand. you never could. i was wrong you were right, no matter what the fight. you cheated on me, you lied to me, you violated every ounce of trust i had in you. all those notes, were they real, or did you lie? pardon me-stained, lie to me-12 stones, i can't do that anymore-faith hill. and many more were all you. you had me confused and bent to your will. you did what you wanted for a thrill. no matter what you did, you had an answer a reason why i made you do it, i hurt, i cried, i thought i was worthless, i did everything i could, for you. you called me aphrodite, calypso, a diamond in the rough, told me i was perfect, then tore it all down. breathe-taylor swift. i tried to move on you wouldn't have it. i wasn't strong enough to walk away. i loved you, somedays i struggle not too. i don't understand why, after everything you did, i miss you... somedays not at all, somedays i wanna pick up the phone, i won't because i know in the end we'll go back through this cycle, you tear more of me apart each time. i won't do that anymore. i made my choice. i'm happy. why can't you just walk away, why can't you stop hurting me, why do you haunt me? i want him, you criticize his every move, he's never lied, never cheated, never hurt me... why would i ever trust you again... quit. walk away. forget it all. i can't laugh, i can't cry. i'm done. i have been for a long time. don't you dare mess with my future. i'm finally happy. even the toughest days don't compare to the hell you put me through and they never will. ps i love you.