Holy Water

Somewhere there's a stolen halo. I used to watch her wear it well. Everything would shine wherever she would go but looking at her now you'd never tell. Someone ran away with her innocence; a memory she can't get out of her head. And I can only imagine what she's feeling when she's praying kneeling at the edge of her bed. And she says - take me away and take me farther, Surround me now, and hold - hold - hold me like holy water. She wants someone to call her angel, someone to put the light back in her eyes, She's looking through the faces and the unfamiliar places. She needs someone to hear her when she cries. And she says - take me away and take me farther, surround me now, and hold - hold - hold me like holy water. She just needs a little help to wash away the pain she's felt. She wants to feel the healing hands of someone who understands. And she says - take me away and take me farther, surround me now, and hold - hold - hold me like holy water.

- I don't know if I'll ever feel whole again. I don't know if it will ever go away. I don't know that anyone can really love the real me, when I don't know if she even exists anymore. I need someone to hold me, take me away from it all. I want to be someones angel. I don't know if anyone understands the tears I've cried. I don't know that anyone has seen the tears I've cried. I don't know if I'm done crying. I pray. I'm nothing compared to what I used to be. I feel like the world is dark, and he took it away. When will this pain go away. 7 years... and I still feel like I can't breathe... I feel like it won't end. Some days I wish I hadn't survived. Some days I don't know how I'll make it through. I'm tired of being angry, tired of the hurt, tired of the pain, I can't carry this alone... I can't... I just can't. Why can someone be so cruel to hurt someone like this. I didn't deserve it. I didn't do anything. It isn't my fault... Why me? Why do I have to hurt? Why me? I'm trying to get through this. So I can love you. I am trying so hard. I love you, so very much. These demons are haunting me... My past hurts. Please try and understand... I love you... I'm sorry for hurting you.....