All We'd Ever Need

Boy it's been all this time, and I can't get you off my mind, and nobody knows it but me. I stare at your photograph, still sleep in the shirt you left, and nobody knows it but me. Everday I wipe my tears away, so many nights I've prayed for you to say.

"I should have been chasing you, I should have been trying to prove, that you were all that mattered to me, I should have said all the things, that I kept inside of me and maybe, I could have made you believe, that what we had was all we'd ever need."

My friends think I'm moving on, but the truth is I'm not that strong and nobody knows it but me. And I've kept all the words you said, in a box underneath my bed, and nobody knows it but me.

But if you're happy I'll get through somehow, but the truth is I've been screaming out.

"I should have been chasing you, I should have been trying to prove, that you were all that mattered to me. I should have said all the things, that I kept inside of me and maybe, I could have made you believe, that what we had was all we'd ever need."

- I feel like I have so much left to say. And you have nothing. I feel like I'm missing a part of my life. A big one. I never thought I'd be without you. Ever. Forever and for always remember?
I'm not going to just stand by and wish I could do something. I hope that you'll hear me out. I hope that you'll understand what I'm saying. I'm sorry that I pushed. I know you aren't ready. I wanted more than I was ready for. I tried to rush things too much. I love you. I know that. I know that you are the person I want to be with. I can't make you feel the same way. However, I can try to tell you I'm sorry and how I feel.

Damn

You and I...

There you go again when you rub against my skin. I have to catch my breath. I begin to sweat. Oh. Lips, tracing down my neck, and it's scaring me to death. How'd you ever learn to draw me to the cliff. Just to push me off the edge.
Damn...I hate the way you know me. Damn, you kill me when you hold me like I'm your world, like this won't hurt. Like a favorite curse hitting every nerve. Damn. I'm fighting and I'm losing, damn you. You're pulling and a pushing and I'm wrestling with, I toss and twist. Until I finally give in. Damn.
I hate being addicted. Only you would have predicted that I'd be torn and worn so thin. You can see right through my soul.
Damn. I hate the way you know me. Damn, you kill me when you hold me like I'm your world, like this won't hurt. Like a favorite curse hitting every nerve. Damn. I'm fighting and I'm losing, damn you. You're pulling and a pushing and I'm wrestling with, I toss and twist. Until I finally give in. Damn.
I get wreckless, scared, confused, I feel desperate so for you, and you know it.
Damn. I hate the way you know me. Damn, you kill me when you hold me like I'm your world, like this won't hurt. Like a favorite curse hitting every nerve. Damn. I'm fighting and I'm losing, damn you. You're pulling and a pushing and I'm wrestling with, I toss and twist. Baby, I give in. Damn....

- Damn ~LeAnn Rimes

You know what you do to me. Damn. If only you could see the emotions beneath.

Say Goodbye

Things are changing, it seems strange and I need to figure this out. You've got your life, I got mine but you're all I cared about. Yesterday we were laughing, today I'm left here asking where has all the time gone now? I'm left alone somehow growing up and getting older, I don't want to believe it's over.

Don't say goodbye, because I don't wanna hear those words tonight. Because maybe it's not the end for you and I and although we knew this time would come for me and you, don't say anything tonight if you're gonna say goodbye.

Do you remember in December, how we swore we'd never change? Even though you're leaving that our feelings would always stay the same. I wish we could be laughing, instead I'm standing here asking do we have to end this now? Can we make it last somehow? We both know what we've gotta say, not today because I don't wanna leave this way.

And if it's over, it hurts but I'm giving you my word, I hope that you're always happy like we were.
- say goodbye- skillet.

- I was never good and timing. Ever. I never claimed to be. I'm sorry for the hurt I'm sorry for being "a day late and a dollar short." I get the feeling that you can't say what you need. I'm not going to reach out and try. It's all you now. I'm hurting worse than you know. All I can say is that I "wish you well" and I hope that you find everything you're looking for.

I love you.

Words I couldn't say...

In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away

What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

- Rascal Flatts

i couldn't say how i felt before. forgive me. what could have been....

realize...

Today I realized speaking your mind and telling someone what's in your heart are two completely different things.

Realize- Colbie

didn't i tell you, didn't i
but i can't spell it out for you
it's never going to be that simple
no i can't spell it out for you
if you'd just realize what i just realized.

Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis

You cut me open and I just keep bleeding,
keep keep bleeding love.

Wish You Well- Thousand Foot Krutch

I wish you well, wish you well on this trip to find yourself,
wish i could help you, but i can't help you find yourself,
i wish you well.

~A thousand tears i've cried.~

everyday

everyday....rascal flatts

You could've bowed out gracefully, but you didn't
You knew well enough to know to leave well enough alone, but you didn't.
I drive myself crazy, trying to stay out of my own way.
The messes that I make, but my secrets are so safe.
The only one who gets me every day, you save my life
Sometimes I swear, I don't know if I'm comin' or goin', but you always say something.
Without even knowing that I'm hanging on to your words, with all of my might.
Yeah I'm alright for one more night, everyday you save me.

--Thank you for saving my life