already gone

last time i saw him, i packed up my things. he smiled like the first time he told me his name. we cried with eachother and we spread the blame for the things we couldn't change. there he was waving goodbye on the front porch alone but i was already gone...
sugarland- already gone

how

i need my best friend, i'm hurting, but how do i talk to you when you're the one that broke my heart?

i wanna tell you how i feel... i wish i could turn back the events of yesterday. i know this has been building... i know i've made mistakes.... haven't we all... damn... what i would give to crawl in your arms... the lyrics of so many songs are swirling in my head... you're the only answer i've found... i've tried to be perfect that doesn't work... i'm still me... the girl you fell in love with... i know i can't make it right... i know that nothing i say will change your mind... i wish i understood you... i wish you understood me... this is all one big misunderstanding... i can't take this time apart... i've hit the bottom... i wish this was all a dream but it's real. i really screwed this up... i was too much... and i lost it... i feel all these things... i cry... i laugh... i curse... i remember the amazing times we had... i read the letters you wrote... i keep trying to figure out why i let it get to this... i'm sorry... just words i know... my heart is in your hands...

If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all? We’ll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with. I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand. If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life? I don’t know why you’re so far away but I know that this much is true. We’ll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with, and I wish that you could be the one I die with, and I pray you’re the one I build my home with. I hope I love you all my life. ‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away, and I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today. ‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right, and though I can’t be with you tonight, you know my heart is by your side.

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain and it's 2am and I'm cursing your name. You're so in love that you act insane and that's the way I love you. Breakin' down and coming undone. It's a roller coaster kinda rush and I never knew I could feel that much and that's the way I love you.

I think it was me, it must of been me, I guess I did something wrong. I tried too hard, wanted too much, I guess that's why he's gone. I lost my pride, I fought and cried. I felt like a little kid. What's wrong with me? I still can't believe, I did the things I did.

just some of what went through my head.... i needed to get it out... that's what this blog was for... for me... my emotions... i'm not ashamed of how i feel... i'm hurt... i want nothing more than for you to look at me with those beautiful eyes and tell me you love me and we'll make it through... i can't lose faith... i can't stop trying... i can't give up... i love you forever and a day... i know you'll read this... i don't know what you'll think or even if you'll say anything... i'm not okay right now... and i won't be for awhile... but just so you know i want you back for the right reasons... because my heart is yours has been for a long time... i'm ready when you are i can do without the time apart... i just needed to get this out... it's a mess of feelings... know i love you and i'm very sorry... i'm trying

What I wish you'd say and how i feel...

Are you having trouble keeping up? Seeing this thing through? I want to know who you're running from, me or you? You’re too confused to open up, feel the way I do. I want to know who you're thinking of ‘cause I really have no clue. Another game of charades. Don't you know everybody plays? I don't want to lose to you that way. Maybe we'll be different this time around. Maybe we'll be different I don't know. Don't want to strangle this, so I'm holding back for now. Calm down, don't take it too far. I know only time can heal scars. So I'm ready when you are, when you are. I'm ready when you are. Don't want any false starts. I can do without the time apart. So I'm ready when you are, when you are. Are you having trouble keeping up? You know that I will wait. I wonder if it's good enough to make you stay. You're too confused to open up. You don't know what to say. Well you can tell me, I won't be far away. I want to know if you're thinking of me. I'll be counting the hours even though I know I'm free. Too soon to take a chance. No more questions left to ask. I could be anything, but the one thing I'm not sure you want to be. Calm down, don't take it too far. I know only time can heal scars. So I'm ready when you are, when you are. I'm ready when you are. Calm down. Don't want any false starts. I can do without the time apart. So I'm ready when you are, when you are. I'm ready when you are. Calm down, I'm ready when you are.

~Trouble keeping up yes... i'm scared of me... i'm scared i'll screw up so what do i do screw up more... i'm trying really hard... i'll get there... i promise. I want to hear you say that you're ready when i am....

White Horse

Say you’re sorry that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to. As I pace back and forth, all this time cause I honestly believed in you. Holdin' on the days drag on, stupid girl I should have known.

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale. I'm not the one you sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell. This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around.

Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes, and never really had a chance. My mistake, I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upper hand. I had so many dreams about you and me. Happy endings, well now I know...

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale. I'm not the one you sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell. This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around.

And there you are on your knees. Begging for forgiveness, begging for me. Just like I always wanted but, I'm so sorry.

Cause I'm not your princess. This ain't a fairytale. I'm gonna find someone some day, who might actually treat me well. This is a big world. That was a small town, there in my rearview mirror disappearing now. It’s too late for you and your white horse to catch me now.
-taylor swift- white horse

You broke my heart too many times for it to heal now. I'm not your princess you said I was only one man's princess, remember? Well, it goes for you too. I'm done. I loved you. I did, but you weren't sorry back then.

i never wanted the stars...

The last time I saw her was the night she said goodbye. She said that love's a stranger and it's sure to pass you by. As she packed up her belongings, she wouldn't look me in the eye, but I could see a tear roll off her face. As we both tried so hard not to cry she said, “I never wanted the stars, I never shot for the moon, I like them right where they are. All I wanted was you, so baby; just turn away because I can't face the truth. All I'm trying to say is all I wanted was you.”
-I Want You - Bon Jovi
I want you. All I ever wanted was you. I didn't ever need presents. I want love, your love. I want you to show me, tell me how you feel. I want to see it in your eyes. I want to hear it in your voice. I want to fall in love with you all over again every time you look in my eyes. Honey, I just want you. It's not too late.

beautiful

I love the way you hold me, you hold me so tight I can’t move. It’s like everything I’ve ever known is a lie and you’re the simple truth. Is it a dream? Or is it real? All I know is you make me feel so beautiful. I love how soft you touch my skin, like you’re touching the wings of a butterfly. I wish we could just lock ourselves away in a room, where there was no such thing as time. I’ve never let anyone get this close. I’ve always been afraid, but you break down every wall and yet I feel so safe. Every part of who I am is so in love because what I have is beautiful.
beautiful-faith hill

last call

I recognized your number, it’s burned into my brain. I felt my heart beating faster, every time it rang. Some things never change, that’s why I didn’t answer. I bet you’re in a bar, listening to a country song, glass of Johnny Walker Red, with no one to take you home. They are probably closing down, saying, “No more alcohol.” ‘Cause I’m always your last call. I don’t need to check that message, I know what it says, “Baby, I still love you,” don’t mean anything when there’s whiskey on your breath. That’s the only love I get. So if you’re calling, I bet you’re in a bar. Listening to a cheating song, glass of Johnny Walker Red, with no one to take you home, they are probably closing down, saying no more alcohol. I bet you’re in a bar, because I’m always your last call. Call me crazy but I think maybe we’ve had our last call.
- Last Call, LeAnn Womack


we've had our last call. i'm sorry you miss me. i'm sorry you think after all these years it's still there. i don't love you. we've had our last call.

When You Love

I think it was me, it must of been me. I guess I did something wrong. I tried too hard, wanted too much. I guess that's why he's gone. I lost my pride, I fought and cried. I felt like a little kid. What's wrong with me? I still can't believe, I did the things I did. I couldn't change him, he was gonna break my heart. I saw it coming. I knew it from the start. But when you love someone like that, when you give what you can't take back. When you love with all your heart and soul, it's so hard to let it go. When you love someone like that.

~Girl it ain't right, it just ain't right. Don't tell yourself that it was you. You followed your heart, you gave it your best. There's nothing more you can do. Guys like him are like the wind, and you know it's just too bad. They blow in and out again, and never know what they had. Girl, I can tell you, he'll do the same to someone else. It ain't about you, so don't be so hard on yourself. 'Cause when you love someone like that, when you give what you can't take back. When you love with all your heart and soul, it's so hard to let it go. When you love someone like that.

Someday You'll Know.

Ninety miles outside Chicago, I can't stop driving, I don't know why. So many questions...I need an answer. A year later, you're still on my mind.

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart? Who holds the stars up in the sky? Is true love just once in a lifetime? Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain. Someday we'll know why the sky is blue. Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you...

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis, or what the wind says when she cries? I'm speeding by the place where I met you for the ninety-seventh time tonight.

Someday we'll know why Sampson loved Delilah. One day I'll go dancing on the moon. Someday you'll know that I am the one for you...

Open up the world. I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow, watched the stars crash in the sea. If I could ask God just one question; why aren't you here with me tonight?

Someday we'll know why Sampson loved Delilah. One day I'll go dancing on the moon. Someday you'll know that I am the one for you...

it only hurts

it only hurts when i'm breathing, my heart only breaks when it's beating, my dreams only die when i'm dreaming, so i hold my breath to forget.

Me and You

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone. I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run. Save me they're trying to tell me how to feel. This love is difficult but it's real. Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.

Home.

why can't i just say i quit when things get to hard. or i want to go home.

"i'm surrounded by a million people, and i feel so alone, i just wanna go home. i miss you, you know. let me go home, i've had my run, baby i'm done, i'm coming home. it will all be alright, i'm coming home tonight."

i miss you. no matter who i'm surrounded by. i just wanna go home. home as in where my heart is. baby i wanna come home.

'They say the first time won’t ever last. But that didn’t stop me, the first time he laughed. All my friends tried to warn me the day that we met, “Girl, don’t you lose your heart yet.” But his dark eyes dared me with danger. And sparks fly like flame to a paper. Fire in his touch burning me up, but still I held on. I was already gone. Life is a runaway train you can’t wait to jump on.'

I'm already gone. My heart is yours, and no matter what they say it always will be. I'm already yours. From the first day we met. I'm not giving up. I love you and I miss you and I want to go home.

Fearless

There's something about the way the street looks when it's just rained. There’s a glow off the pavement walk me to the car, and you know I wanna ask you to dance right there in the middle of the parking lot. We're driving down the road, I wonder if you know, I'm trying so hard not to get caught up now, absent mindedly making me want you. And I don't know how it gets better than this. You take my hand and drag me head first. Fearless. And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress. Fearless. So baby drive slow, until we run out of road in this one horse town. I wanna stay right here in this passenger’s seat. You put your eyes on me in this moment now capture every memory. Well you stood there with me in the doorway, my hands shake, I'm not usually this way but you pull me in & I’m a little braver. It’s the first kiss, it's flawless, really something, it’s fearless.

Love to be your last.

If I had it my way, this would be the first time that you made love. I'd be the first man that your hands touched. But we'd both done our share of living. Taking chances we were given. I've never been big on looking back. I don't care if I'm your first love. But I'd love to be your last. If I could do it over, I'd have waited for this moment to give my heart to you unbroken, but if our mistakes brought us together. Doesn't really matter whether, we were saints or sinners in the past. I don't care if I'm your first love. I'd just love to be your last. All I know is what I see when I look at you. And all I see is what I'm feeling down inside. And all I'm feeling is the feeling that I finally got it right. When I wake up tomorrow. I'm going to throw my arms around you. Thank my lucky stars I found you. Because I know your heart has so much more than any man has touched before that. Nothing matters more to me than that. I don't care if I'm your first love, but I'd love to be your last.

- Clay Walker, I'd Love to be your Last.

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel; this love is difficult, but it's real. Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess. It's a love story, baby just say yes.

Our Song

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car. I look around turn the radio down. He says baby is there something wrong? I say no I was just thinking how we don't have a song. And he says, our song is the slamming screen door, sneaking out late tapping on your window. Our song is the way you laugh, the first date, "man I didn't kiss her and I should've."

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day had gone all wrong and been trampled on and lost and thrown away. Got to the hallway, well on my way to my bed, I almost didn't notice all the roses and the note that said... "I've heard every album, listened to the radio waited for something as good as our song. Our song is sneaking out late, tapping on your window. The way you laugh. Nothings as good as our song."

More Like Me?

She's beautiful in her simple little way. She understands she don't let go of anything even when the pain gets really bad. Guess I should've been more like that. I guess I should've been more like her. Forgiving you, she's stronger than I am. You love her and she loves you with all she has. I guess I should've been more like that.

- You can wish all you want, you can miss what you THOUGHT you had. Go ahead. Say all that you want. Make as many references as you please... He's still with me. Trying to be me won't work, because there only is one me.

I know what you're doing. You think you're going to ruin what I've got, but you're not. I'll teach you a lesson. If you go to messing with my man, you don't stand a chance. I know you've waited a long time for him. But you missed your chance. You're too late. So before you go and make your move. Me and you need to get a few things straight. There is two ways we can do this... You can take it somewhere else or we can take this outside. Is that clear enough?

- You aren't going to ruin this with fancy words and manipulate you're way back in. You don't stand a chance. You think you had him... He was mine even when you thought he was yours... either back off or lets take this outside. I've had it. I'm not falling for the angel act... Whatever you have to prove to yourself do it somewhere else.

i'm not ready to make nice i'm not ready to back down i'm mad as hell and i'm not going to do what it is you think i should.

I need you to know.

Lying here beside you in the dark, I feel the steady rhythm of your heart, feel your face against my shoulder breath upon my skin. Ambers barely smoldered I make love to you again. Nothing in this world compares to this. The way our bodies fit, the way we kiss, passion beneath your nails just answer my desire. Seems that I am more less consumed here in your fire. Do you know how beautiful you are here in the afterglow? Do you know I'd walk through hell for you barefoot in burning coal. 1000 ways I love you and I need to know you know. Do you know how much it means to me the way you make me feel? Like I could soar the heavens gathering shooting stars lace them in a bouquet in a rainbow. Everything that's happening to me is what you are. Something deep inside me tells me that you know.

~I love you always will. I know you know. I just want it to reassure you again. We are perfect together always have been.

If I Can't Have Your Love

It's hard to remember a time when I didn't have you, when I didn't have nothing but a cold bed to come to at night. That was all I knew, until there was you and then you took my world and turned it all around. I couldn't live without you now. Baby, if I can't have your love, if I can't feel your touch I got nothing. Baby, if I can't taste your kiss then I don't exist, I got nothing. No I can't imagine living life without you. I can't imagine living life without your love. I wake up with you by my side, can't let go, I can't even bear the thought of you in another’s eyes. I would lose control, I would die, ‘cause now you're in my heart and I can't let you out. I gotta keep you here somehow. Baby, if I can't have your love, if I can't feel your touch I got nothing. Baby, if I can't taste your kiss then I don't exist, I got nothing. If I can't be yours, I wouldn't know who I am, I got nothing. No, I can't imagine living life without you. I can't imagine living life without your love, 'cause I can't imagine living life without you. I can't imagine living life without your love. Believe me baby I don't mean to doubt you, but if you ever leave, that would be the end of me, baby. Baby, if I can't feel your touch I got nothing. Baby, if I can't taste your kiss then I don't exist, I got nothing. If I can't be yours, I wouldn't know who I am. I'd be nothing. Baby, if I can't have your love, if I can't feel your touch. I got nothing. No, I can't imagine living life without you.

- I think this is self explanatory. You mean so much to me. Forever. Always. I love you.

Did i have you from hello?

At the mirror you fix your hair and put your makeup on
You’re insecure about what clothes to wear
I cant see nothing wrong

To me you look so beautiful when you can’t make up your mind
Its half past eight, its getting late
Its ok, take your time

Standing here my hands in my pockets
Like I have a thousand times
Thinking back it took one breath
One word to change my life

The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

When we walk into a crowded room its like were all alone
Everybody tries to kidnap your attention
You just smile and steal the show

You come to me and take my hand
We start dancing slow
You put your lips up to my ear and whisper way down low

From the first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

And when you’re laying down beside me
I feel your heartbeat to remind me...

The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

- did i have you from hello... when i took my time did it bother you... have i ever made you feel this way...

'Till We Ain't Strangers

It might be hard to be lovers but it's harder to be friends. Baby, pull down the covers, it's time you let me in. Maybe light a couple candles, I'll just go ahead and lock the door. If you just talk to me baby, ‘till we ain't strangers anymore.

Lay your head on my pillow I sit beside you on the bed. Don't you think its time we say some things we haven't said? It ain't too late to get back to that place, back to where, we thought it was before. Why don't you look at me, ‘till we ain't strangers anymore?

Sometimes it's hard to love me, sometimes it's hard to love you too. I know it's hard believing that love can pull us through. It would be so easy to live your life with one foot out the door, just hold me baby, ‘till we ain't strangers anymore.

It's hard to find forgiveness, when we just turn out the light. It's hard to say you're sorry when you can't tell wrong from right. It would be so easy to spend your whole damn life just keeping score. So let's get down to it baby there ain't no need to lie.

Tell me who you think you see when you look into my eyes. Lets put our two hearts back together and we'll leave the broken pieces on the floor. Make love with me baby, ‘till we ain't strangers anymore.

- 'Till We Ain't Strangers Anymore - Bon Jovi w/ LeAnn Rimes


I love you. Let's put "us" back together, forget the pain in the past. Lets leave the broken pieces on the floor and put our hearts back together. Talk to me, look at me, hold me, and make love to me baby until we aren't strangers anymore. I don't know how two people that were so close become so far apart. Baby, I don't want to be strangers anymore. I love you, it's time you let me in.

Last Breath

As I sit here I wonder,

When will I breathe my last breath

Will I have a chance to say good bye

What if this is the last day I have left

Did I tell you I love you

Or did I assume you knew

Did I tell you that I wish you didn’t hurt

That I’ll always be there

I can’t stop the pain

I can’t decide for you

If you want to be here

It’s your decision too

One more day, just a thought

Hold me all day, or just kiss me goodnight

It’s your pick honey,

Just tell me you’ll be alright

Don’t cry I know it’s hard

I’m not afraid to let go of life

I’m scared to tell you goodbye

I’m sorry I wish I could be your wife

Life is too short for regrets

I hope this isn’t a mistake

I don’t want to hurt you

But it’s a chance you take

You don’t have to stay

I know you care

It’s ok if it hurts too much

I know you can’t always be there

I love you, forever and for always

Just in case you need to hear

Please remember I’m not far away

I’m with you always, and I’ll always be there

- Another poem I wrote

You're Still Here

I had a dream last night that you came to me on silver wings, and I flew away with you on a painted sky. And I woke up wondering what was real, is what you see and touch or what you feel? Because you're still here; you're everywhere we've ever been. You're still here.

- I know it wasn't a dream. I know that you were beside me holding me once again. Perfect, like it's always been.

I woke up in the middle of the night and saw you sleeping. I was hoping you were dreaming about me. I kissed your cheek and said “I love you.” You reached for me and then you mumbled “I love you too, is everything ok?” I said I’m fine baby, go back to sleep. I’ve just been thinking life is changing around us and I hope you believe. I’ll still be me; just a normal girl from small town nowhere. I’ll still hold your hand, I’ll still be me. If you can count on one thing, I’ll be here; the same girl that you’ve known for centuries. I’ll still be me. Empires could rise and fall, the sun could swallow the moon; and I don’t hold a crystal ball. But I promise you; I’ll still be me, just a normal girl from small town nowhere. I’ll still hold your hand, kiss you goodnight, I’ll still be me. If you can count on one thing, I’ll be here.

- I love you, no matter what happens or where we end up. I will always love you. I'll still be me, the one that you've always loved. I love how that never changes. In your eyes, I will always just be me.

ps i will always love you.

ps i love you

Baby why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know. I can't even breathe. It's like I'm looking from a distance standing in the background and everybody's saying, he's not coming home now. This can't be happening to me. This is just a dream.

- I can't promise you forever, I can't promise you tomorrow. I can't promise you anything. I can tell you I love you. I thought that this was all just a dream. That tomorrow I would wake up and it would all be gone. Now, I look at the possibilities and realize, for you, it can't be easy. You say you love me... I know you do. But can you really be a friend? We were meant to be lovers, weren't we? I can't change the past, but I can change the small future I do have. I know my chance is gone.... probably for good. But I keep praying that somehow, someway, you'll find a way back to me someday.

Somewhere along the way,
I hope you’ll find me someday.
I’ve been lost and looking forever,
I guess it’s just the price I pay.

- i guess when i figure things out... it's just too late....

Boy it's been all this time, and I still can't get you off my mind, and nobody knows it but me. I stare at your picture, still sleep in the shirt you left, and nobody knows it but me. Everyday I wipe my tears away, so many nights I've prayed for you to say, "I should've been chasing you, I should've been trying to prove, that you were all that mattered to me. I should've said all the things that i kept inside of me and maybe, I could have made you believe, that what we had was all we'd ever need." My friends thing I'm moving on, but the truth is I'm not that strong. And nobody knows it but me. I've kept all the letters you sent... In a box underneath my bed, and nobody knows it but me. But if you're happy, I'll get through this somehow. But the truth is.... I should've been chasing you, I should've been trying to prove that you were all that mattered to me. I should have said all the things that I kept inside of me and maybe, I could have made you believe that what we had was all we'd ever need.

- I wish I would have said the things I needed to say. I wish I wasn't so good at hiding the truth, because maybe you'd know how much you mean to me.

It's not easy saying this to you. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but boy before you go, I want you to know. I wish you strength when times are hard. I wish with all my heart you find what you're looking for. I wish you joy, I wish you peace, and every star you see is within your reach, and I wish you still loved me. I wish that things were different you know that, but I'm still happy for the time we had. You mean the world to me, baby please believe. Losing you is tearing me apart, but a part of me with be with you no matter where you are. I wish you strength, when times are hard. I wish with all my heart you find just what you're looking for. I wish you joy, I wish you peace. But most of all I wish you still loved me.

- I want you to know that no matter what happens to me, no matter where I go... I want you above anything to be happy. I love you, very very much. There are days that are hard, and I think I'm not going to make it through. In the past all it took was a smile from you. Now when it's hard to breathe, I know you're not necessarily going to be there for me. It's the hardest thing I've ever done. Sit here and watch you go... I wish things were different.

You can let go. It's ok. How can I help you to tell me goodbye when the day comes?

One more thing.... just one.... Hopefully you can understand what this means...

Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

- ps i will always love you. i know i don't have much time....

I can't help but feel you're done... you're gone, that you're moving on. Just so you know, I love you. Always have, always will. I wish I could have said all the things I couldn't say before. I was stupid, and stubborn.

Winner at a losing game

Baby, look here at me, have you ever seen me this way? I’ve been fumbling for words through the tears and the hurt and the pain. I’m gonna lay it all out on the line tonight and I think that it’s time to tell this uphill fight goodbye. Have you ever had to love someone that just don’t feel the same? Tryin’ to make somebody care for you the way I do is like tryin’ to catch the rain. And if love is really forever I’m a winner at a losin’ game. I know that baby, you tried to find me somewhere inside of you but you know you can’t lie, you can’t hide the truth. Sometimes two hearts just can’t dance to the same beat so I’ll pack up my things and I’ll take what remains of me. I know that I’ll never be the one that you need or love. Baby, it’s killin’ me to stand here and see I’m not what you’ve been dreamin’ of. If love is really forever, I’m a winner at a losin’ game.

~ Am I really? Or is there still a chance...

I still miss you...

I've talked to friends, I've talked to myself, I've talked to God, I prayed liked hell but I still miss you. I tried sober I tried drinking. I've been strong and I've been weak and I still miss you. I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to. I'd give anything for one more minute with you. I still miss you baby.

~ I don't know how I'm going to do this. But I can't hurt you anymore.

A wise girl kisses, but doesn't love, and leaves before she is left. - Marylin Monroe

Goodbye...

i never meant to hurt you. i don't know how this got so painful. it's ok to let go. sometimes the rest of your life starts with goodbye.... if you have to.... it's ok... you can let go

I can't live a lie...

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you and maybe turning my back would be that much easier. Because hurtful words are all that we exchange but I can't watch you walk away. Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you? And all about the good times that we've been through? Could I wake up without you every day? Would I let you walk away? No, I can't learn to live without and I can't give up on us now. Oh, I know I could say we're through and tell myself I'm over you. But even if I made a vow, a promise not to miss you, and try to hide the truth inside, I'd fail because I, I just can't live a lie. Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me? And all the reasons that make loving you so easy? The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe, the way you know just what I mean? No, I can't learn to live without. Don't you give up on us now…I know I could say we're through and tell myself I'm over you. But even if I made a vow, a promise not to miss you, and try to hide the truth inside; I’d fail because I, I just can’t live a lie.

~ I know I can’t live and truly live if I’m living a lie. I don’t want to give up on us. I can’t learn to live without you. I could tell myself I’m over you but no matter what promise I made I’d still miss you. I just can’t live a lie. I can’t let you walk away, I can’t forget the way you look at me when you want me, and loving you has always been so easy. I can’t give up on us now. No matter how hard it gets… I can’t let go. I’d rather fight with you than be with anyone else… I guess what I'm saying is let me let go. Let me follow my heart, no matter what the consequences are. I love you. Don't make me live a lie. You know I love you. Forever and for always. .

Me

I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times, hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, and to push myself. I was taught to never take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, and to never give up, but most of all fight for myself. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Maybe we are so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it.

~ Take me as I am and appreciate me as I am.

I'm Sorry

I want to tell you that I’m sorry. I want to say that I was wrong. I want to tell you that this surface we been living, isn’t where we belong. It’s like a Grand Canyon; we’re out here on the edge. We’re still standing and we haven’t fallen yet. I don’t want to talk anymore. Fall into the trap of who’s wrong and who’s right. It’s easy to see the way you’re looking at me; you just want the same things that I do. All I want to make love to you. Really nothing to say, don’t let our words get in the way. We both know loves not perfect, good, it’s bad, and it’s everything. You know what makes it worth it, all the moments in between. There’s a deep ocean sometimes sink its safe to swim. These are real emotions, so baby let’s dive in.



- Forgive me. I'm trying.

Holy Water

Somewhere there's a stolen halo. I used to watch her wear it well. Everything would shine wherever she would go but looking at her now you'd never tell. Someone ran away with her innocence; a memory she can't get out of her head. And I can only imagine what she's feeling when she's praying kneeling at the edge of her bed. And she says - take me away and take me farther, Surround me now, and hold - hold - hold me like holy water. She wants someone to call her angel, someone to put the light back in her eyes, She's looking through the faces and the unfamiliar places. She needs someone to hear her when she cries. And she says - take me away and take me farther, surround me now, and hold - hold - hold me like holy water. She just needs a little help to wash away the pain she's felt. She wants to feel the healing hands of someone who understands. And she says - take me away and take me farther, surround me now, and hold - hold - hold me like holy water.

- I don't know if I'll ever feel whole again. I don't know if it will ever go away. I don't know that anyone can really love the real me, when I don't know if she even exists anymore. I need someone to hold me, take me away from it all. I want to be someones angel. I don't know if anyone understands the tears I've cried. I don't know that anyone has seen the tears I've cried. I don't know if I'm done crying. I pray. I'm nothing compared to what I used to be. I feel like the world is dark, and he took it away. When will this pain go away. 7 years... and I still feel like I can't breathe... I feel like it won't end. Some days I wish I hadn't survived. Some days I don't know how I'll make it through. I'm tired of being angry, tired of the hurt, tired of the pain, I can't carry this alone... I can't... I just can't. Why can someone be so cruel to hurt someone like this. I didn't deserve it. I didn't do anything. It isn't my fault... Why me? Why do I have to hurt? Why me? I'm trying to get through this. So I can love you. I am trying so hard. I love you, so very much. These demons are haunting me... My past hurts. Please try and understand... I love you... I'm sorry for hurting you.....

Beautiful

I love the way you stand in my way, and you won’t move until you get a kiss, and how you tell me that my name tastes so sweet on your lips. I love the way you hold me with your eyes, hold me so tight that I can’t move, it’s like everything I’ve ever known is a lie and you’re the simple truth. Is it a dream, or is it real? All I know is you make me feel so beautiful. I love how soft you touch my skin, like you’re touching the wings of a butterfly. I wish we could just lock ourselves away in a room, where there was no such thing as time. I’ve never let anyone get this close, I’ve always been afraid, but you break down every wall and yet I feel so safe. Every part of who I am is so in love because what I have is beautiful. You make me feel so beautiful.

- Forever and for always, I love the way I feel with you. You've made me feel so special, so loved. You didn't have to do what you did... Thank you, for making me feel so beautiful.

i promise

I am sitting here wondering

Why can’t I have you

Wishing you were here somehow

I’m holding on to hope

I’m learning how to cope

I just can’t seem to get to you

Life is to short for regrets

Live every day to its fullest

Hold me tight, don’t let me go

I can’t help but forget

I wake up and I should be with you

I keep waking up alone

I’m still wishing and hoping

I’m holding on to what I can

I’m trying to find what I need

Somehow you are the only thing

My heart desires, I just can’t get to you

Please reach to me, let me see you

Save me from this hurt,

Save me from this pain,

You’re the only one that can

My life won’t last long,

It’s not near long enough to be yours

Baby, just hold me that’s all I need

I am holding on for you

I won’t let go

This I promise you.

- Promise me you won't leave my side... I need you here even as I fight for my life... Forever and a day... Forever and for always... remember... you promised you would always be here. I need you now more than ever, facing this alone is my worse fear.

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I’m afraid to let go

I’m afraid to move on

I’ve been in love with you

So damn long

I know it wasn’t right then

But nothing is in the way now

Except our fears

I’m moving on you tell me how

It’s so hard to know how you feel

When you won’t let go

I don’t know what to do

When you won’t let your feelings show

I will be here no matter what

You just have to let me in

I’m trying to show you

I don’t know where to begin

I’m confused and lost

Somehow with you I’m found

My name on your lips

Is such a welcome sound

We’ve waited so damn long

Let it go babe, I’ll be here, I promise

We’ve been so strong

Everything will be ok before long

- A poem I wrote.

Missing you...

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.


I love you...

Because of your love...

Baby I don't understand, how just the touch of your hand can make me feel invincible. Do you know just where you take me? Do you know how high you make me? I need your kiss like oxygen, with your arms all around me. When your eyes look deep into me, it's unstoppable. Baby, anything is possible. Everything I wanna be, any dream I wanna dream. I can because of your love. Anywhere I ever go. With all of my heart I know, I am who I am because of your love. Don't know how I lived before you. Now I live to explore you, take me to your secret world. Whether you're right by my side or whether you and I are a million miles apart, I can always feel you in my heart.

Anything and Everything

What do you dream about? Look at the stars, honey, all you gotta do is pick one out, and it's there for you. I'll be the one who makes your every dream come true.
Close your eyes and baby; make a wish and baby, I'll give you anything and everything. The sky's the limit and my heart is in it. I'll give you anything and everything.
Where do you want to go? Look at the world, baby. All you gotta do is just say so and I'll take you there. Oh yeah, you know that love can take you anywhere.
Close your eyes and baby; make a wish and baby, I'll give you anything and everything. The sky's the limit and my heart is in it. I'll give you anything and everything.
I could spoil you, make it easy, make you happy if you let me. Won't you let me? I'll be the one who makes your every dream come true.
Close your eyes and baby; make a wish and baby, I'll give you anything and everything. The sky's the limit and my heart is in it. I'll give you anything and everything. Anything and everything…
- Martina McBride

-Close your eyes baby, make a wish... Tell me what it is you desire. I'll give you anything and everything. Forever and for Always.

Last Night

You come to me with your scars on your wrist. You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this. “I just came to say goodbye. I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine.” But I know it's a lie. This is the last night you'll spend alone, look me in the eyes so I know you know, I'm everywhere you want me to be. The last night you'll spend alone. I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go. I'm everything you need me to be, the last night away from me. The night is so long when everything's wrong if you give me your hand, I will help you hold on. I won't let you say goodbye and I'll be your reason why. The last night away from me.
- Skillet, The Last Night.


I don't want to be alone. Please tell me that this is my last night alone.

I want you...

The last time I saw her was the night she said goodbye. She said that love's a stranger and it's sure to pass you by. As she packed up her belongings, she wouldn't look me in the eye, but I could see a tear roll off her face. As we both tried so hard not to cry she said, “I never wanted the stars, I never shot for the moon, I like them right where they are. All I wanted was you, so baby; just turn away because I can't face the truth. All I'm trying to say is all I wanted was you.”

I tried so hard to remember where when how why love went away. I tried to drown myself in pity but the whiskey kept calling your name.

I bought you fancy cars and diamond rings, all the things that money brings, and the servants to paint the sky blue and I worked so hard seven days a week and built a fortress for your heart to keep. If I could I'd wrap these words up for you; I never wanted the stars, I never shot for the moon, I like them right where they are. All I wanted was you, so baby; just turn away because I can't face the truth. All I'm trying to say is all I wanted was you.

I may have built for you a dream house but never thought you were alone. I filled the party up with company, but never made our house a home. All I got is my guitar these chords and the truth all I got is my guitar ... but all I want is you.

-I Want You - Bon Jovi

I want you. All I ever wanted was you. I didn't ever need presents. I want love, your love. I want you to show me, tell me how you feel. I want to see it in your eyes. I want to hear it in your voice. I want to fall in love with you all over again every time you look in my eyes. I may have complained because you didn't get me a card. (it would have been nice) but honestly all I've really ever wanted was you. Sometimes you tried to hard, others it wasn't enough. Honey, I just want you. It's not too late.

post cards.

If you don't love me, lie to me. 'Cause baby you're the one thing I believe. Let it all fall down around us, if that's what's meant to be. Right now if you can't love me baby - lie to me.

Now before the summer sun gets chased away, and all of our tomorrows turn to yesterdays;
I'm going to build you that castle, I'm going to write you that song, I've got to find the words to say, until I hold you in my arms.

I'm sending postcards from the wasteland. Postmarked from the state of my heart, in care of wherever you are, Postcards from the wasteland.

Tonight I'll meet you in my dreams
See you soon
Love,
Me

- Postcards from the Wasteland -Bon Jovi
- Lie to Me - Bon Jovi

I'm sending you my love, even in my dreams. I hope you know what it is you mean to me.

lyrics

song lyrics say the words we cannot

Anyway

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yea - I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway
Yeah, yeah!

I sing
I dream
I love anyway

-I love you anyway. I miss you. I'm going to give it all I've got to make this work. I know I've made mistakes. I didn't trust you when I should have. But I'm giving it all I've got. But I'm going to love you anyway. Even if tomorrow, you just walk away. I love you. <3 forever and for always.

Lie to me

Our candle burns away
The ashes full of lies
I gave my soul to you
You cut me from behind

Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cuz who I am, is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel
You fallen again
You're no super hero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end...

You said you were there for me
You wouldn't let me fall
All the times I shared with you
Were you even there at all?

Nowhere to run and no where to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cuz who I am, is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel
You fallen again
You're no super hero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end

Why'd you have to up and run away
A million miles away
I wanna close my eyes and make believe
That I never found you

Just when I put my guard away
It's the same old story
You left me broken and betrayed
It's the same old story

Don't act like an angel
You fallen again
You're no super hero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end...

Lie to me once again
It's the same old story
Lie to me once again
It's the same old story

Was it worth it in the end...

- Lie To Me - 12 Stones

- I'm tired of the lies. I'm tired of the "hidden truths". So lie to me baby, lie to me again. Tell me it's gonna be alright. This is goodbye so lie to me. Just one more time tell me you love me. Tell me you care, tell me you'll always be there. I didn't mess up. It wasn't me. I followed my heart and I walked away. I don't care. Lie to me. Take another little piece of my heart. I'm tired...tired of the lies, tired of the pain, tired of giving, tired of letting you take advantage of me, tired of not being good enough. Because the truth is I DESERVE BETTER THAN YOU. So lie to me one more time. Same story different day. Lie to me. I hope it was worth it. I hope you found what you needed. Were you ever there at all? You picked up the pieces so I thought, you really ruined what hope I had for my future. Don't act like an angel...you've fallen again. You're no superhero, you didn't save me in the end. You are negative and judgmental, I don't know how I ever believed that I could be different. That I was special. Lie to me, call me your angel, call me a goddess, lie to me, tell me you're in love with me. Lie to me, baby just lie to me. Give it your best shot and lie to me. I can take it just take another little piece of my heart and lie to me. Tell me it's all gonna be ok. You're no superhero you didn't save me in the end.

forever and for always aren't just words to the one i truly love, the one who has really been there at my side. forever and for always. i'm sorry, love, i'm sorry.

hey love

Hey Love

Looking back on everything I've done
I never thought I'd find the one
To share the dreams that only I had seen
Locked in the deepest part of me

I took a chance to lay it on the line
There was nothing left to hide behind
If you never love then you may never lose
And I hope I'll always be with you
Now I'm screaming

Hey love won't you leave your touch
On this heart that's broken
I can't breathe when you're not here
Hey love won't you lift me up
On the wings that fly higher than the stars
That shine above

Thinkin back on everything we've done
We watched the waves drown the sun
We shared a dream that both us had seen
And we made it our reality

We found a way to stand the test of time
All of our doubts were left behind
If you never love, then you may never lose
And I hope I'll always be with you
Well I'm screamin'

Hey love won't you leave your touch
On this heart that's broken
I can't breathe when you're not here
Hey love won't you lift me up
On the wings that fly higher than the stars
That shine above

If darkness should fall upon our hearts
Remember the dreams from the start

Hey love won't you leave your touch
On this heart that's broken
I can't breathe when you're not here
Hey love won't you lift me up
On the wings that fly higher than the stars
That shine above

I can't breathe when you're not here

- Hey Love 12 Stones

- I've made mistakes. It's not been easy. I look back on the mistakes and I know I've hurt you. It hurts me to know the pain I've put you through. I'm sorry. I love you. Always. Forever. If you need to leave I understand. I would love for you to stay. I would love for you to say, "I love you, I'm not leaving you, ever." I pray that happiness finds you someday.

- I just want that one guy who will make everything seem right, when he asks me "what's wrong?" and I say "it's a long story" he'll be like, "babe, i got all night."

It was you...

it was you that showed me who i am and taught me how to stand. for what i know is real.

i was sick of all the pain tired of all the shame i felt but you showed me a way to never have doubt. and always to believe in myself and now i see... it was you that showed me who i am and taught me how to stand for what i know is real.

now i'm breathing for the first time, and i'm leaving all this behind. i've become, what i am because of you. it was you.

i'm so sorry about the ways, but i can't take away my past. but you love me anyway, and now i wanna do everything for you that i can. even though it won't erase, the foolish things that i've done, things that blinded me, but now i see.

it was you that showed me who i am and taught me how to stand for what i know is real.

now i'm breathing for the first time, and i'm leaving all this behind. and taught me how to stand for what i know is real.

so how can i make this up to you. i'll fight and i'll push and i'll strive. now that i'm living my life for you. i'll fight and i'll push and i'll strive. can't you see?

it was you that showed me who i am and taught me how to stand. for what i know is real.

now i'm breathing for the first time and i'm leaving all this behind i've become what i am because of you it was you

i can see the writing on the wall as time begins to crawl away from me. and i've become what i am because of you. it was you.
- 12 Stones -It was you.

Can't you see all that's in side of me. I try so hard to prove to you. That my life is made by you. I can't tell you how it hurts when I hurt or disappoint you. I want you to be happy. I want you to know what you mean to me.

All We'd Ever Need

Boy it's been all this time, and I can't get you off my mind, and nobody knows it but me. I stare at your photograph, still sleep in the shirt you left, and nobody knows it but me. Everday I wipe my tears away, so many nights I've prayed for you to say.

"I should have been chasing you, I should have been trying to prove, that you were all that mattered to me, I should have said all the things, that I kept inside of me and maybe, I could have made you believe, that what we had was all we'd ever need."

My friends think I'm moving on, but the truth is I'm not that strong and nobody knows it but me. And I've kept all the words you said, in a box underneath my bed, and nobody knows it but me.

But if you're happy I'll get through somehow, but the truth is I've been screaming out.

"I should have been chasing you, I should have been trying to prove, that you were all that mattered to me. I should have said all the things, that I kept inside of me and maybe, I could have made you believe, that what we had was all we'd ever need."

- I feel like I have so much left to say. And you have nothing. I feel like I'm missing a part of my life. A big one. I never thought I'd be without you. Ever. Forever and for always remember?
I'm not going to just stand by and wish I could do something. I hope that you'll hear me out. I hope that you'll understand what I'm saying. I'm sorry that I pushed. I know you aren't ready. I wanted more than I was ready for. I tried to rush things too much. I love you. I know that. I know that you are the person I want to be with. I can't make you feel the same way. However, I can try to tell you I'm sorry and how I feel.

Damn

You and I...

There you go again when you rub against my skin. I have to catch my breath. I begin to sweat. Oh. Lips, tracing down my neck, and it's scaring me to death. How'd you ever learn to draw me to the cliff. Just to push me off the edge.
Damn...I hate the way you know me. Damn, you kill me when you hold me like I'm your world, like this won't hurt. Like a favorite curse hitting every nerve. Damn. I'm fighting and I'm losing, damn you. You're pulling and a pushing and I'm wrestling with, I toss and twist. Until I finally give in. Damn.
I hate being addicted. Only you would have predicted that I'd be torn and worn so thin. You can see right through my soul.
Damn. I hate the way you know me. Damn, you kill me when you hold me like I'm your world, like this won't hurt. Like a favorite curse hitting every nerve. Damn. I'm fighting and I'm losing, damn you. You're pulling and a pushing and I'm wrestling with, I toss and twist. Until I finally give in. Damn.
I get wreckless, scared, confused, I feel desperate so for you, and you know it.
Damn. I hate the way you know me. Damn, you kill me when you hold me like I'm your world, like this won't hurt. Like a favorite curse hitting every nerve. Damn. I'm fighting and I'm losing, damn you. You're pulling and a pushing and I'm wrestling with, I toss and twist. Baby, I give in. Damn....

- Damn ~LeAnn Rimes

You know what you do to me. Damn. If only you could see the emotions beneath.

Say Goodbye

Things are changing, it seems strange and I need to figure this out. You've got your life, I got mine but you're all I cared about. Yesterday we were laughing, today I'm left here asking where has all the time gone now? I'm left alone somehow growing up and getting older, I don't want to believe it's over.

Don't say goodbye, because I don't wanna hear those words tonight. Because maybe it's not the end for you and I and although we knew this time would come for me and you, don't say anything tonight if you're gonna say goodbye.

Do you remember in December, how we swore we'd never change? Even though you're leaving that our feelings would always stay the same. I wish we could be laughing, instead I'm standing here asking do we have to end this now? Can we make it last somehow? We both know what we've gotta say, not today because I don't wanna leave this way.

And if it's over, it hurts but I'm giving you my word, I hope that you're always happy like we were.
- say goodbye- skillet.

- I was never good and timing. Ever. I never claimed to be. I'm sorry for the hurt I'm sorry for being "a day late and a dollar short." I get the feeling that you can't say what you need. I'm not going to reach out and try. It's all you now. I'm hurting worse than you know. All I can say is that I "wish you well" and I hope that you find everything you're looking for.

I love you.

Words I couldn't say...

In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away

What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

- Rascal Flatts

i couldn't say how i felt before. forgive me. what could have been....

realize...

Today I realized speaking your mind and telling someone what's in your heart are two completely different things.

Realize- Colbie

didn't i tell you, didn't i
but i can't spell it out for you
it's never going to be that simple
no i can't spell it out for you
if you'd just realize what i just realized.

Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis

You cut me open and I just keep bleeding,
keep keep bleeding love.

Wish You Well- Thousand Foot Krutch

I wish you well, wish you well on this trip to find yourself,
wish i could help you, but i can't help you find yourself,
i wish you well.

~A thousand tears i've cried.~

everyday

everyday....rascal flatts

You could've bowed out gracefully, but you didn't
You knew well enough to know to leave well enough alone, but you didn't.
I drive myself crazy, trying to stay out of my own way.
The messes that I make, but my secrets are so safe.
The only one who gets me every day, you save my life
Sometimes I swear, I don't know if I'm comin' or goin', but you always say something.
Without even knowing that I'm hanging on to your words, with all of my might.
Yeah I'm alright for one more night, everyday you save me.

--Thank you for saving my life

Better as a Memory

I don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to say it. I don't wanna break your heart. You're such a good friend, and an essential part of my life. You just aren't the one I want to be with. I've met him. I love him. How do I tell you, and expect you to understand? I'm trying, I just don't know what to say, I just don't love you that way.

"I'm built to fade like your favorite song, I get reckless when there's no need, Break my heart it won't bleed."

I'm not your true love. I'm not yours, I never will be. I'll fade away just like this weeks favorite song, I'm not your love. I'm too reckless.

"Never sure when the truth won't bend, I move on the way a storm blows through. I struggle sometimes to find the words. Always sure until I doubt, but I'm honest to a fault. That's just who I am. I'm better as a memory than as your girl."

I'm moving on. My heart has never been yours. I was always his. Forever and for always. I'm struggling to find the words. Don't misunderstand you are an amazing friend. I'm always sure until I doubt....but please understand, I love him no matter what. This is just who I am. I'm better as a memory...than as your love.

"I see you leaning, you're bound to fall. I don't wanna be that mistake. I'm just a dreamer, nothing more. You should know before it's too late."

I don't like how you lean on me. I don't know if it is too late now. I'm thinking it is. You've already fallen. I hope I'm not a mistake. I didn't want you to fall. I'm dreaming of something else. I know it hurts. I hope it's not to late.

"'Cause goodbyes are like a roulette wheel, you never know when they're gonna land. First you're spinning, then you're standing still. Left like a losing hand."

I don't want to walk away. I don't want to hurt you. If I don't, I don't think you'll ever let go. I do care, I even love you, but not the way you want or need me too. I'm sorry.

"But one day you're gonna find someone, and right away you'll know it's true. Right there in that moment you'll understand, that I was better as a memory than as your girl."

I know you think that I'm someone...but you'll find the special one. And you'll understand that this wasn't to hurt you or to be mean. It's to help you understand I'm better as a memory.

wish you well

"Wish You Well"

Sometimes love, feels like pain, and sometimes I wonder if it's all the same, sometimes life, feels just like rain, cause you never know, when it's gonna
fall down on you

I wish you well, I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself, I wish you well, wish I could help, but I can't help you find yourself

Sometimes faith, feels like doubt, and sometimes I wonder if we'll even get out, sometimes life hurts just like now, but ya gotta know, it's all gonna
come back around

I wish you well, I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself, I wish you well, wish I could help, but I can't help you find yourself

find yourself,
I can't help you find yourself,
find yourself..

and we were sixteen at the time, nothing could ever change our minds, we were one step below invincible, and we always fought it, you've never been the
same, you were so scared to make a name, then you threw it all away, and i wish you'd come back now.

I wish you well, I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself, I wish you well, wish I could help, but I can't help you find yourself, I wish you well,
I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself, I wish you well, wish I could help, but I can't help you find you

I wish you well, I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself, I wish you well, wish I could help, but I can't help you find yourself

find yourself,
I can't help you find yourself,
find yourself,
I can't help you find yourself...
- TFK


I left college today. I moved out. I'm transferring. I don't know how to feel. i'm lost in a way. at the same time i know i'm going back....i hope i can find myself.

lost

so bon jovi was amazing live. daughtry was amazing also.
sick is no fun....recovering....i want to go home but somehow i don't know where that is....

shining like a diamond

rolling with the dice. standing on a ledge, i'll show the wind how to fly. when the world gets in my face, i say....HAVE A NICE DAY.

Bon Jovi....in T-1 hour. amazing.

so happy.


if only you would talk to me. i miss you i do.

-this romeo is bleeding but you can't see his blood-

forever and for always

today i realized somethings. not everything is as it seems. luck isn't everything, but it sure helps. love well that can't be categorized. as hurt as i have been and every mistake that i've made, has helped me realize. i couldn't ask for more. i've always thought that you can be angry your entire life but it doesn't get you anywhere, well the same can be said about hurt, and pain. sometimes YOU have to let go. i've been beaten and i've been bruised, but i'll stand back up. in particular, theres a wonderful guy that deserves an apology and my heart, completely. because i realized today, i'd rather fight with him than be with anyone else. he's my world. and i'm sorry for holding a grudge this long and hurting because of my past. i'm going to live for whats important. be with the one who treats me right and forget the ones who never treated me like i deserved. jake, i love you forever and for always.

you save me

when everything is meant to be broken, i just want you to know who i am.

i miss you so much. today just sucked. it was one thing after another.

another one of those you save me moments.


when i'm a ship tossed around on the waves, up on a high wire thats ready to brake....baby you save me.

didn't you know how much i loved you

I remember the way you held me
Like I was all you'd ever need
Did you change your mind
Well I didn't change mine
Now here I am trying to make sense of it all
We were best friends now we don't even talk
You broke my heart
Ripped my world apart

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn't you know how much I loved you

I can't get you out of my head
I still feel you in this bed
Left me all alone
You couldn't be more gone
From falling apart to fighting mad
From wanting you back to not giving a damn
I've felt it all
I've been to the wall

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn't you know how much I loved you

One day justice will come and find you
And I'll be right there in your memory to remind you

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
I gave you everything, every part of me
-kelli pickler-didn't you know how much i loved you.



I did give you everything. I'm happy now, even though you still haunt me. I wish you knew how much l loved you. I wish you knew how much I still do care. I wish I still had my friend because I miss that. I love the guy I've got more than life itself. I wish that my past would quit haunting me.

drama.

leave your drama at home, if you make a mistake face it, don't blame others, don't make excuses. you know what you did come clean. dragging it out and making a show to prove your lies is worthless. just come clean.

Tryin' To Find A Reason

Our love can’t survive for long like this

We are standing on a bridge that’s always burning

Maybe it’s just time to walk away

If you’re tryin’ to find a reason

Are you tryin’ to find a reason to stay

I don’t know how long this pain will last

All I know is it can’t go on forever

Are you trying to find a reason to stay?

If your heart has nothin’ left to give

If your world feels like it’s just stopped turning

Maybe that says all there is to say

It’s hard to admit it, but we’ve tried everything

Everything but goodbye, say goodbye

We’ve tried everything,

Maybe it’s just time to walk away,

If you’re trying to find a reason to stay,

Are you trying to find a reason to stay?

Baby it’s just time to walk away,

If you’re trying to find a reason to stay.

It’s hard to admit it,

It’s time for goodbye,

This bridge is always burning.

It’s just time to walk away.

You never really loved me anyway.

We’ve tried everything,

Does your heart have nothing left to give,

Did your world stop turning?

Tell me the truth

I don’t know how long this pain will last

All I know is it can’t go on forever

Please quit trying to find a reason to stay

It’s time to just walk away.

Maybe that’s all there’s left to say,

I would’ve loved you anyway,

Please quit trying to find a reason to stay.

It’s time to walk away.

i thought that we'd stay happy, and be together. the things i sacrificed for you. now that you're gone, i've moved on. the day i never thought i'd get through, i got over you. i'm happy now. i've got the love of my life. don't think i'd try to sabotage you or your relationship. i want you to be happy, yes, i still love you, and i always will. but i've moved on, i'm over you. i am in love with a wonderful man. i didn't say the things you think i did. you may never believe me and that's alright.

-martina mcbride. trying to find a reason to stay-

how i feel

If being a bitch means:

I stand up for myself and my beliefs,

I stand up for those I love,

I speak my mind, think my own thoughts,

Or doing things my own way,

I won’t compromise what’s in my heart,

I live my life MY way,

I won’t allow anyone to step on me,

I refuse to tolerate injustice,

It means I have the courage,

And the strength to allow myself to be me,

So try to stomp on me, douse my inner flame,

Squash ever ounce of beauty I hold within,

You won’t succeed,

And if that makes me a bitch, so be it,

I embrace the title and I’m proud to be a Bitch.

I've always been strong and my own person don't tell me that I'm wrong to stand up for myself, or speak my mind.

Don't tell me I can't, don't complain to me, don't tell me that I'm wrong.
I'm not ready to make nice, I'm not ready to back down, I'm still mad as hell, and I'm not going to do what it is you think I should.