2/28/14

Look At Me

I would bet my life like I bet my heart 
That you were the one, baby 
I've never been so sure of anything before 
You're driving my heart crazy 

I can't hold out 
I can't hold back now 
Like I've done before 

Darling, look at me 
I've fallen like a fool for you 
Darling, can't you see 
I'd do anything you want me to 

I tell myself I'm in too deep 
Then I fall a little farther 
Every time you look at me 

How do you do that, babe? 
Make me feel like I'm the only girl alive for you 
I don't know what it is that makes me fall like this 
First time in your arms, I knew 

The way you held me 
I knew that this could be 
What I've been waiting to find 

Darling, look at me 
I've fallen like a fool for you 
Darling, can't you see 
I'd do anything you want me to 

I tell myself I'm gettin' in too deep 
Then I fall a little farther 
Every time you look at me 
Every time you look at me
-I didn't know I could fall in love like this. I love you with all I am. Just when I think I cannot possibly love you more you look at me and I love you more than the day before. I love you without question, unconditionally. My heart is yours. Forever and for always 

2/22/14

Someday When I Stop Loving You

I remember that night we laid in bed
Namin' all our kids that we hadn't had yet
One for your grandma and one for mine
Said we'd draw straws when it came time

I'll move on baby just like you
When the desert floods and the grass turns blue
When a sailin' ship don't need her moon
It'll break my heart but I'll get through
Someday when I stop lovin' you

I bet all I had on a thing called love
I guess in the end it wasn't enough
And it's hard to watch you leave right now
I'm gonna have to learn to let you go somehow

I'll move on baby just like you
When the desert floods and the grass turns blue
When a sailin' ship don't need her moon
It'll break my heart but I'll get through
Someday when I stop lovin' you

-5 years ago this rang true, second chances don't happen twice. Now I've got my second chance and baby I never stopped loving you. <3

6/3/11

Cowgirls Don't Cry

Her Daddy gave her her first pony
Then taught her to ride
She climbed high in that saddle
Fell I don't know how many times
He taught her a lesson that she learned
Maybe a little too well

Cowgirls don't cry
Ride, baby, ride
Lessons of life are going to show you in time
Soon enough your gonna know why
It's gonna hurt every now and then
If you fall get back on again
Cowgirls don't cry

She grew up
She got married
It never was quite right
She wanted a house, a home and babies
He started coming home late at night
She didn't let him see it break her heart
She didn't let him see her fall apart

'Cause Cowgirls don't cry
Ride, baby, ride
Lessons of life are going to show you in time
Soon enough your gonna know why
It's gonna hurt every now and then
If you fall get back on again
Cowgirls don't cry

Phone rang early one mornin'
Her momma's voice, she'd been crying
Said it's your daddy, you need to come home
This is it, I think he's dyin'
She laid the phone down by his head
Last words that he said

Cowgirl don't cry
Ride, baby, ride
Lessons of life show us all in time
Too soon God lets you know why
If you fall get right back on
The Good Lord calls everybody home
Cowgirl don't cry
-Brooks and Dunn

Pepper was my first pony, Daddy gave him to me when I was 6. I remember falling, and Dad saying I had to get back on again, and Cowgirls don't cry, no matter how bad it gets. Cowgirls don't cry. I suppose that's how I learned to be tough. Sometimes, it's a blessing others a curse. So lets go back to the basics. If you fall get back up, and don't cry, because, Cowgirls don't cry. Cowgirl up. It's time.

5/19/11

address in the stars

i stumbled across your old picture today, i could barely breathe. the moment stopped me cold, grabbed me like a theif. what do i do with all i need to say, it breaks my heart, i cry these tears in the dark, i write these letters to you but they get lost in the blue because there is no address in the stars.

it only hurts

it only hurts when i'm breathing, my heart only breaks when it's beating, my dreams only die when i'm dreaming, so i hold my breath to forget

5/17/11

i hope i can get my answers soon

You by the light is the greatest find. In a world full of wrong, you're the only thing that's right. Finally made it through the lonely to the other side. You said it again, my heart is in motion. Every word feels like a shooting star. I'm at the edge of my emotions. I'm in love and I'm terrified. For the first time and the last time in my only life.

My heart feels like a circus, it's too much to take in. It's hard to lose love, but you were my best friend. If I seem distant, baby, I am. Words are like scissors in your hands. There's no script to follow. So I just close my eyes. That way it won't hurt as much when you say goodbye.

5/5/11

i'm not ready to make nice....

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting
-dixie chicks

I can't go back, the line that was crossed is too deep, and I can't forget. Somethings you shouldn't have to sacrifice. I gave more than I could handle. I'm done.